aggravate me.
but sadden me at the same time,
because it means im not really waiting on anything at that moment.
and i can just think.
i havent done that in a while.
i have four tabs open.
three haven't loaded.
the first tab is photos of my sisters 21st.
hoorayz! i think i looked pretty.
it was a good night, i wish i was eighteen..
sevenmonthsbeb.
ahh.. good times with tomwilliamsfromaustralianidol.
so my sisters 21st, between sneaking into the toilets to drink my sisters freinds alcohol,
i didnt think once about anything else i cared, more like dont care about.
it was only after then, when i got kicked out at 12am -__-
that the thought came. at pigs place.
he was having a "shindig" for his eighteenth. jealousy;
numerous times i said to him, as if your here at this lame thing not out at a nightclub.
i hope what my in-quarrantine-swine-flu-friend said comes true.
as harsh as it is, i see fairness in it.
you cant always get what you want.
shes no exception. shes the rule.
and she's the rule because i was 'selfish' (as some call it) enough
to do the one thing that benefitted me. helped me, if you'd like to put it nicely
to have her have to life, for the rest of her living days,
knowing that she will never get an accpeting to her half-thought (if you ask me) apology.
she clearly still didnt/hasn't seen whats become of me.
tab check: 3/4 pages unloaded..
like i said you cant always get what you want.
i want a lot of things, i expected things too,
from her, higher.. more.. like how a best friend would act.
pig said today he expects more (more money of which he thinks i owe him)
and i turned around and said "i expected a lot of things i never got too buddy"
ohhhhhh, good one chanelle :D
i was reading some trashy mag, lol; mag, and it had about 13 things you should expect from your best friend.
i read it laughing.
they all seemed to do with your boyfriend, or ex boyfriend.
saying stuff like: you will never talk even associate with my ex unless i say it is alright to do so
HAHAHAHAHAHA
ill admit that is a bit far fetched, but its nice to know some people out there have bestfriends that are like that, never lie
go behind their back, lie, treachery, lie, deciet, lie, humiliation, lie have i mentioned it enough?
tab update: 2/4 unloaded.
1/4 exited with frustration
so this shindig as it was put..
nothing interesting happened..
just two-faced-friend tried persuading someone to not have a relationship.
i was on the opposition, although not half agreeing to what i was saying.
oh well,
he doesnt know that.
im still not sure, single is much selfish,
but relationships have the love that no... (HAHA) best freind maybe? could even offer.
tab update: 1/3 unloaded.
1/3 exited with frustration
chin up baby.
